Will becoming a drunk stop you from realizing the fact that your a failure in life?

As soon as i turn 21, i am think about getting in to drinking since the law says i can. Plus i am sick of knowing i'm a failure. I can't live my dreams. I am not from a rich family. Will be stuck in this college debt and plus i am stuck in some red next state called Ohio. I want to go out west to California. Parents don't want to go out west. I hate it here and i hate college debt. So hard to find a job here.I have a 4.0 GPA but i am kinda thinking out giving up on life. Following the rules and being a good boy, does not seem like its paying off. What should i do?