Why must i always lead conversations?

Whenever I meet new people or have really good friends I always have to be the out going one. I have to be the one too ask if we should hang out, I have to be the one who starts converaations, and I have to always be the person who's carzier and more out going. It just seems to piss me off recently. Why do I always have to work hard to meet new people and they don't say anything, do anything. I have only met 2 people in my life who start conversations. What's your take on this?