Im tired of being hurt, why is the girl that im dating and i love making me hate my life? short question?

Stop complimenting her and see if she even notices. If she asks y you stopped just say you don't compliment me so I figured you were uncomfortable with compliments. N you saying "she let me go down on her" that shows that you are letting yourself be into this girl way tooo fast.... She should have returned the favor.... You seem genuine and not out just for sex....